I am sitting in my office at 7:30 on a Saturday night. One of the lights in my office blew a fuse earlier this afternoon, so it's a little dimmer than usual, which is making me melancholy. Or I was melancholy before and now the lighting matches my mood. Most likely the former. I hate feeling like this. I was finally feeling content. It always happens like this, though. As soon as I start feeling like I could be happy with my life like it is, something happens to make me remember what I'm missing out on. It's crap, is what it is. Whoever it is messing with me, cut it out! I have a good life! Quit making me hate it!